Where is the Tide Taking Me?by Posted Author on 08/27/12
Guest Post by Author, Sue McGhee
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"Confluential" is an intriguing word and defined in the first book of Gary Smith"s Trilogy, "Subjected."
Briefly, as explained by his character in the book, it expresses the coming together of various elements, energies and ideas (as in the confluence of rivers) which subsequently influence our thinking and motivations. The word is apt in my own experience and I can easily apply it to my own personal belief system, ground out through the years from Christian dogma (both Catholic and Protestant), Buddhist study, new-age awareness (the law of attraction), Quantum Theory, Yoga and Ayurveda.
Have you ever felt the rush of emotion that comes when you visit an historic site for the first time and you feel all goose pimply with awareness? That this is not new, but...memory? That you are filled with the sense of history there, the feel of another time, other lives, other selves? To me this indicates that we've lived more than this life and that we've actually been to this place in another life. Or, that we have a spiritual connection to the people who once inhabited such a place. I doubt there are very many of us who haven't experienced that feeling at one time or another. Those who deny it have probably experienced it but simply ignored it because they are not open to an "irrational" experience.
It's happened to me many times so I believe that feeling of awareness has meaning. But is my belief the same as faith? That's for each of us to ask ourselves. For me, faith is the idea that I am an individual soul, linked to others; that we are infinite and part of the same ONE which is God, thus becoming god or god-like in our own manifestations. We are like (individual) drops in the sea of a vast unknown cosmos made up of multiple universes and multiple selves. Alternate selves populate alternate universes. And we are now living multiple existences with multiple ideas and multiple outcomes resulting from multiple decisions.
Which brings me back to this idea of the "confluential."
Our lives are filled with the unknown and the unknown can be difficult and frightening. Being thrown about at the confluence of rivers and streams and being uncertain about the direction the turbulence will carry us.
But this is our opportunity.
New places and new ideas begin to reach inside and expand our awareness. We believe that those eerie moments of recognition or familiarity--are real. We grow; we learn. That is where I am, have always been, and will always be: holding to a tree after a tsunami and watching as the tide recedes.
It's scary; it's an adventure. It's called life.
Sue is an author of several books, and one I especially enjoyed: When the Eagle Flies with the Condor: a Novel of the Sixties. Visit and book mark Sue's blog at the link listed below her name. ~ G. F. Smith